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Emotional eating

Ugh.  It’s been a loooong end to the week.  Weekends are supposed to be restorative and get you refreshed for the work week ahead, but they’ve been anything but relaxing these days.  Stressful, in fact.  We are too busy and as a result I’m choosing food that’s not the best for my body and it’s making me feel blah and I don’t like it.  I could make a million excuses about it, but the reality is, they are choices I’m making, soooooo…I should stop.  But food is comforting and sometimes I just want what I want because it makes me happy (in the moment).  It’s lame, but I’m pretty sure everyone on the planet makes similar choices, so I’m only human.

This is Wednesday’s breakfast…a home-made carrot walnut raisin muffin with oats and almond flour.  Topped in cashew butter.  When I have the time, I am pretty good about starting the day right.

As you can see, this was eaten at the table (and photographed!), which means I had the time. Otherwise I’m eating standing over the sink while I attempt to load the kids in the car and run out the door for whatever activity we have.  It’s a miracle thing about having kids…you can be up at 6 am and still be late for something at 9 am.  Well, that’s a lie.  I’m a punctual person so my “late” is on time, and my “on time” is 5-10 minutes early.  But you get the point.  I hate rushing with meals so it’s super important to me to try to give myself the time to eat.  Sounds basic, but it’s not always easy.

Impulse buy from TJs last week.

Yes, I know it has wheat/gluten.  I’m not going to try to justify why I think it’s ok or whatever for a low fodmap diet because to be perfectly honest, it isn’t.  It’s not terrible, by any means, though and I wanted to try it, so I got it.  And it was awesome.  But I had regurg for the rest of the day.  I’m not sure if it would have been as big of an issue had I stuck to the two shown below, but I was starving (I ate lunch way too late this day) so I went back for more and that’s where I think I went wrong.

I put avocado and Kite Hill almond cheese on top.  So yum.

After naps we picked Kyle up from the train station and went to farmer’s market.

We came home for dinner though because I didn’t feel like spending $ when we had leftovers to finish at home. I didn’t really feel like the broccoli dish, but like I said, it was fridge clean out day, so this was my contribution. I don’t even remember what I gave the kids or Kyle!!

Helllooooo lovahhhh.

Definitely went back for seconds.  New pledge: only get what I get the first time around, no seconds!  There.  It’s in writing.

Thursday breakfast!  It was a hot workout and I was in the mood for a smoothie.  I am low on Vega chocolate protein powder.  I should keep my eyes open for the next WF supplement sale. In truth, I barely had time to finish this before leaving the house.  I ended up bringing the mug in the car and shoveling it down my face between P’s preschool drop off and V’s play group (which start at the same time FYI).

Lunch salad du jour had kale, miso dressing, carrots, avocado, and salty almonds.

A weird thing started happening lately with my huge kale salads. They have started making my GI symptoms flare.  I noticed it a bit last week and then I kinda took a few days off them this week and am not sure what to make of it because I had other things that made my body feel yucky too so I need to figure out what’s up.

I am really starting to dislike Thursday nights because they are too crazy.  We go straight from soccer to tee ball and then we have to drive an hour to my parents’ house before OIT Fridays. And somewhere in there they have to eat dinner (and he has to get his milk dose but remain inactive for an hour before bed). It’s stressful trying to coordinate it all.  I won’t be too sad when the season ends in two weeks.

Because Kyle had to coach this week and I was in charge of snacks, we couldn’t cut out early either.  By the time we left the game it was already 6:30 so I knew there was NO WAY we could wait another hour to eat dinner.  So we ate in Davis (taco leftovers) before packing up the car to drive to the Bay.

OIT day!

He eats breakfast before we drive to Fremont, but I try to keep him eating fairly regularly throughout the appointment to cushion his stomach for the milk doses.

We got through SO MANY updoses!  It was really nerve-wracking to be honest, because the cumulative amount he got seemed like a ton (it was, in fact, over 3/4 a cup in a 3 hour time span).

After a 90 minute wait, he was cleared for the last dose (60 cc), so off we went to WF.

I had been on pins and needles for the last hour at the office because he was showing (very minor) signs of congestion – sneezing with a slightly stuffed up nose – but I just kept feeding him and distracting him and keeping him calm and inactive and eventually it cleared up!  Phew!

So there I am at WF, a ball of nerves with endless food options at my fingertips, and what do I want to eat?  Cream of tomato soup and a soft pretzel.  Obviously, this was a bad idea, but it was calling to me.  I went back and forth so many times before saying F&^% it and getting the dang soup.  Dairy and wheat in one sitting ohhhh buddy.  This is after my stomach was still reeling from the rye seed crackers the day before.  Oh and I had a Quest bar that morning with lots of other icky weird stuff too!  Poor gut.  I just don’t even give it a chance.

In addition to the (gluten-y) soft pretzel and (creamy) tomato soup, I had kale chips (that I brought from home). It was an amazing meal, to be honest, but probably not the best for my gut’s sake.

P napped the whole way home (which was an hour longer than normal due to major traffic) and when we arrived at my parents’ house he was totally rested and energized (and symptom free). My dad had national park quarters to add to his collection. Nerd alert!! V had recently woken from a nap, too, so they were both bouncing off the walls, while I was dragging.  I hate to say it but I was kinda dozing off on the way home.  I had NPR on (This American Life) and that combined with the traffic, I was seriously freaking out that I was going to crash!  I kept shaking my head and finally put on some music that I could sing along to.  Obvs I made it fine, but man was I exhausted when I got there.

My parents’ Costco sells kombucha (Kevita brand) and since I have gotten my whole family hooked on the ‘buch, they had some in their fridge.  It helped calm my stomach and offered a mini dose of caffeine.  I’ve never tried the kevita brand (I’m a pretty loyal GT’s person), and it was a flavor I’d never think to try (pineapple peach) but it was so good!  I asked my mom to grab me a 6 pack next time she’s at Costco because ours doesn’t have them.

We spent the rest of the afternoon in the backyard being spazzes, picking eating stuff from the garden, and keeping my dad company while he did yard work).

This carrot wasn’t ready but that didn’t stop them from gnawing on it for the rest of the afternoon.  And eating a bunch of the green tops.

They took turns a few times, but eventually she just claimed it as her own.  He was fine with it, naturally, because it was hard as a rock.

They ate parsley, rosemary, and red leaf lettuce, too before finding their way to the citrus trees.

They looooove hanging with grandma and grandpa in the backyard.

I don’t even know what they were looking at or discussing here…

But there’s V, just holding on to her carrot and lemon for dear life.

I even had to change her diaper with her holding them!

My dad grilled burgers for dinner – turkey and beef.  And we made two kinds of fries (krinkle cut were 365 brand, regular were Alexia foods) and a spinach salad (pistachios, strawberries, balsamic vinaigrette dressing).

I didn’t hold back even a little when it came to this meal.

I had seconds of fries, added extra mayo to my burger half way through eating it, and finished the avo coated GF bread off both of my kids’ plates.  It’s like I was on a mission.  I was too tired and full for dessert and ended up going to bed at 9 pm that night because I just wanted to end the day.

P was doing great after his dinner dose, and he actually fell asleep pretty quickly after we put him to bed…but I had a weird feeling about him.  It’s easy to label it as “mom intuition” in hindsight, but I really had this nagging feeling that something was off and even got up to check on him after I was in bed.  He was sleeping, so I just went back to bed.  Luckily he was in our room because a few hours later I heard him moaning followed by a weird gagging sound.  I sprang out of bed, knowing right away that he was throwing up, and raced to the bathroom with him in one arm and a handful of vomit in the other.  Sorry to be graphic.  The rest of the night was all kinds of terrible.  Kyle was a rock star helper, starting laundry and whatnot while I sat with him in the bathroom rubbing his back and holding him.  It never actually stopped until noon the next day.  He was pretty good about telling us when he was done (for the time being) and then we’d clean him up, crawl back in bed (all sleeping together) and 10, 20, sometimes 45 minutes would pass and we’d suddenly know it was time to race back to the bathroom.  We ran out of clothes pretty immediately, so he was in my socks and his tee ball jersey by the time the sun came up.

He told me playing trains would help him get energy and that would make his tummy feel better. Who am I to argue with that logic?!  Especially on zero sleep…

He wanted nothing to do with food all day, but I did get him to try a few sips of my strawberry banana sun butter smoothie.  He threw it up a few hours later though.  🙁

Aside from the intermittent vomit, he was in decent spirits!  He helped me bake cookies because I promised him the day before that we would.

They were chocolate with coconut flakes and gluten free.

The second half had walnuts because I wanted them but he didn’t, so that was our compromise.

At some point, Kyle took them off to do a secret activity (which I now know was making me a bowl at color me mine for Mother’s Day).

I had called our OIT MD already and he told us to skip the morning dose because P wasn’t eating anything, and he didn’t eat lunch either, so we decided to play his evening dose by ear too.

I couldn’t stop thinking about his poor little body, suffering as I forced him to eat such a big dinner so that he could handle his new high dose.  I should have known better than to think he could handle all that milk in one day.  I should have listened to his cues more closely.  We should have been more cautious with the amount of updosing.  Should have, should have, should have.   Now we are missing doses, which we have never done, which will probably put us back to square one. Two steps forward, one step back. It’s impossible to know what the right approach is, but one thing is for sure, once he feels better, we are slowing this process way down.  Maybe that means taking a week off every once in a while.  Or simply doing one updose per appointment.  But now that the amounts of milk are so huge, it seems reckless to drown his gut in allergens.  Especially because he is the slowest eater of all time.  To get him to eat a big meal, it takes an hour of coaxing (aka nagging) and that turns me into a person I reallllly don’t want to be.  I wish I could let him nibble away for hours on end, but that’s really not practical for oit dosing.  Anyway, I have a million thoughts on this, so I’ll cut it off there.  It’s basically all I can think about these days.  Ever since this incident I have been living in a state of controlled panic leading up to each dose, which is totally NOT THE POINT of doing desensitization in the first place!

Kyle stayed with the kids while I went to another wedding shower for my sister.   It was catered by kebab burger, which is a Mediterranean place in town and I couldn’t help but drown my worries in hummus.  The falafel and hummus were seriously amazing.  I was all but licking the plate.

Eventually I made it back to Kyle and the kids and we loaded up the car to drive back to Davis…

Which was a pretty miserable drive.

V entertained herself fine with food, but P was on the edge of melting down the entire drive (who could blame him after his horrible night and day!).  Truth be told, I was melting down too!  It didn’t help that the drive took 2 hours!!  Or that V dumped a bag of cereal all over the car (that P was feeling up to eating).  Or that we had no dinner planned and it was well past their dinner times. I am getting stressed out just writing about it again now.

I pulled together a meal of randoms, including roasted chickpeas and hard boiled eggs for the kids (P ate a little!).  I had this Caesar salad with smoked salmon, which tasted great, but caused my stomach to completely flip out (due to the dairy in the dressing).  Usually I can tolerate a little Caesar dressing, but my psychological state must have affected my gut because it wasn’t pretty.

The good news of the night was that I ended up giving P his dose and he did fine with it.  I was nervous because he didn’t eat much, but I stuck to the amount from last week (30 cc) and we sat and read books and stayed inactive until he went to bed.  Kyle and I both checked on him multiple times that night and he was fine, so we are back to where we were last week but at least he’s ok.

No dessert for me.  I was so tired I went to bed as soon as P was down at 8:30.

Sideboard and summer preview

OIT update:

He is up to 1/8 cup of whole milk and the MD predicts another couple visits until maintenance!! Maintenance is 1/2 cup (taken twice a day) and is meant to provide “free eating” as determined by our personal experimentation afterwards. You aren’t supposed to eat any additional dairy (more than the two 1/2 cup doses per day) for the first month, but after that you can kinda trial and error to see what you tolerate…

We haven’t tested it, but the MD also thought he’d be safe with butter by now if we wanted to eat at a restaurant.  Insert all the !!!!!!!!

We have probably checked out 100 books-on-cd from the library at this point…thank goodness he doesn’t mind re-reading things over and over.  And over.

Another post appointment celebration at WF.  I got a poke bowl and seaweed salad.  Overpriced but good nonetheless.

I brought him hard boiled eggs but bought him a juice as a treat.  After all the carby pretzel snacks, it’s good to get him eating real whole foods.

We hadn’t even driven a block since leaving the WF parking lot and he was already ZZZZ…

I can’t emphasize enough how awesome he is as a patient.  Such a brave and patient boy.

He was still asleep when I got back to my parents’ house so I just hung out in the driveway (with the car’s AC on for him) until he woke up.  Since we had plans the next day in the East Bay we didn’t have to rush back to Davis.  P was happy to stay and play at grandma and grandpa’s rather than sit in traffic for the next few hours. 🙂

Roasted cauliflower, sausage, kale salad, focaccia, and sirloin for dinner.

That! salad!  I could eat on repeat for the rest of time, easy.

Miraculously, I kept my portion in check, so as to save some kale for the rest of the table. 😉

Just meant more room for dessert…

Kyle and I each went on a run the next morning.  I managed to shower without too much sibling fighting.

After getting ready we headed to Sideboard which I’ve been meaning to hit up ever since a location opened in Lafayette.

Ordering was a hard decision.

Dad’s chilaquiles on the left, mom’s eggs on the right.

Coffee bowl the size of my breakfast had cafe au lait with califia almond milk.

For food I got the home-made english muffin with two poached eggs and home-made preserves.

It was delicious and the portion was perfect.  I finished it all and felt full but not stuffed.

Kyle got the breakfast mac n cheese (!!!) and said the same.  It was gluttonous by nature of the order but the amount wasn’t obscene so it was great.  I brought food for P and V but my mom and I both snuck some food off our plates to my little girl.

Unfortunately, from there we had a bit of a scare.  I learned two key lessons: (1) P needs to really eat a solid amount of food before dosing and (2) at least for the first few days after updosing in the office he needs to remain truly inactive after his dose.  I had been pretty good about the first thing – I don’t give him milk until he has eaten a good proper meal.  But we’ve been pretty lax with the second, particularly after breakfast.  He goes to gymnastics and school and whatever else, sometimes a mere 15 minutes after finishing breakfast and getting dosed up.  For the first few days after updosing we need to really keep him from being too physically active.  He has had an issue once before, but not as serious as this time…we went to the lawn right in front of the restaurant to race paper airplanes after we’d all finished eating and on the way to the car I noticed he was off.  He was sneezing endlessly, and before we knew it he was totally congested.  My parents live close, so within minutes I gave him his albuterol inhaler and Zyrtec.  His wheezing stopped after that, but his body slowly broke out in hives and ended up completely covering his body.  Once his face puffed up I got nervous enough to call the MD.  He answered right away, told me what to do (another dose of zyrtec and pepcid) and fortunately it didn’t get any worse.  No epi, no vomiting. It’s a good reminder that this process is not riskless. P was pretty miserable until the zyrtec kicked in, which finally allowed him to breathe.

We had a play date planned but P wasn’t ready for that so Kyle went with V and the two of us stayed back and read books and did puzzles.

Once his hives were gone, I gave him a bath and then he helped me make lunch for everyone.

I’m trying to get him into tuna, so having him help me in the kitchen making some is step number one.  he tried a few bites just out of curiosity and even though I don’t think he liked it too much, he asked for more and loved the idea of dipping pretzels into it (duh).

Kyle’s turned into a tuna melt.  I had mine plain with avo and salty chips.

I don’t have any more pics from the evening, but it was a fun night at my sister’s.  Her husband-to-be grilled for us all and Marie had made an awesome spread of gluten free and dairy free fare, including cornbread muffins, bacon wrapped dates, strawberry spinach salad, and roasted green beans. And since we left before dessert she sent us home with chocolate brownies.  PS we made it til 8:45!!!  Without the kids melting down!  And thanks to the heaps of chips and guac P had over the course of the evening, before he even tackled the skirt steak, he had no issues with his dose. Phew!

The kids are pretty easily entertained at their place thanks to the swing set in the back yard, which is great since we are staying there the night before and night of their wedding.

We had dessert back at my parents’ house after getting the kids in bed.  It wasn’t too hard since they were both super ready to crash.  I laid in bed with P for a bit getting in extra snuggles and he fell asleep with me right then and there!

I made oatmeal for the kids the next morning and baked the leftovers into muffins (added an egg first) for myself after they were done.

Since we had all stayed up late the previous night, we actually got to kinda sleep in in the morning. V was up at 6:30 but then snuggled with Kyle on the couch for another hour or so in and out of sleep.  P and I got a similar snuggle sesh in – he got up to pee at 7, after which I pulled him into bed with me and we both fell back asleep until 7:45.  Livin’ the Sunday dream!

While the extra shut eye was super awesome, we didn’t get back on the road to Davis until way later than I was expecting so we were late for a play date with friends.  They also both slept part of the way so naps were a no go that day.

We spent the afternoon playing in the yard – busted out the pool for the first time this year!  And sprinklers too!  No more drought to worry about after the non stop rainy winter and spring we had.

At some point we made it to the store for groceries but otherwise it was a very low key afternoon.

Cheeeeeese.

My water babies.

At some point they changed out of their suits but then wanted to stay outside…and somehow we ended up doing naked bubbles.

I made skewers for dinner.  We had too much food and not enough skewers.  Mayj dilemma.

Threw some potatoes in the oven to bulk up the meal.

Kyle steered clear of the zucchini obviously, and in turn I gave all the red onions to him. Marriage!

Home-made ice cream takes FOREVER to thaw.  Anyone have tricks??  There must something in the store bought stuff that makes it melt quicker or something?

Maybe I need to figure out something that’s not the churning part of the ice cream maker to store it in (since you’re really not supposed to store it in that anyway)?  Ideas/suggestions welcomed.

The Bissinger’s bars were on sale for a more reasonable 3.99 per bar so I had to try this one.  I’ve tried the coffee crunch flavor before and this was just as good if not better.

The inside is filled with caramelized honey instead which is a nice twist on the typical caramel center of other bars.  The chili powder is subtle but there in a nice way that gets you every once in a while and while I am always looking for more nuts and seeds in my bars, I didn’t mind that the pepitas were underrepresented in this one.  It was a good bar that I’m happy I got on sale, because $6 is an obscene price for it otherwise.

But I’m not a chocolate snob, so for me the TJs raisin and pecan bar was actually the best of the bunch.

Last week catch up

Kissesssss!

I hesitate to jinx myself with this claim, but I *think* it may finally be Spring?!?!?  We keep having moments of nice weather followed by insane downpours.  It’s unprecedented!  I grew up in the East Bay so I am familiar with these climates, and this year has broken the mold, and then once more over.  I need the rain and cold to stop already.  Anyway, I may be finally getting my wish.  At long last, the forecast shows only suns and no clouds for the week ahead.  Phew!

Bring on the park time!

I made extra bacon wrapped dates for the sole purpose of hoarding them for my kale salad lunches.

I promised my mom the Easter Bunny I would share this bar with Kyle (and I even waited until he was back from his business trips to open it!), but then I made him cookies instead so he said I could have it.  I promise.  It was very rich and paired PERRRRFECTLY with candied ginger.

So I may have spoiled my kids when I bought this orange juicer the other day.

I wanted one all last year and then the season ended and I forgot about it, but here we are again in the middle of my parents’ citrus tree explosion and I find myself cursing the lemon/lime juicer every time I try to make it work for an orange.  Then one day at Target I actually remembered that I wanted one and so I just bit the bullet and bought it for myself (for the record it’s very unlike me to do this – I would usually wait for a birthday and then ask Kyle to get it for me).  I was feeling equal parts proud and guilty for for treating myself to something so non-essential, but I’ve already used it 4 times in the first week since we’ve had it!  Namely, squeezing fresh juice for the kids to have in the morning with breakfast.

Yeah.  And now they are requesting it every morning. Eye roll.  It’s my own doing, I realize, but sheesh!!  I wish they had a clue as to how lucky they are.

I made us banana bread too.

I know I’m complaining, but it’s mostly in jest.  I’m actually pretty thrilled that they like such healthy food – it could be way worse!  And I like being in the kitchen, so it’s kinda a win win. 🙂

Breakfast: waffles

Lunch: kale salad

Dinner: gobble meal kit (sirloin steak with bearnaise sauce, roasted potatoes, and pan fried snap peas.

We had a tee ball game that kept us out late, so we ate dinner after we usually do.

Luckily I had planned out to have the gobble meal that night so even though the meat was made right before we got home, it was still very quick to prep.

Both kids LOVED the meat, and since I ordered 4 servings sizes, we had leftovers, too.  Yay!  The potatoes all got polished off no problem, because they were amazing.  But I only made 3 of the 4 cuts of meat, so I still have one filet left, as well as a whole meal’s worth of bearnaise (because I didn’t do dairy for the kids’ plates).  I’ve been testing my gut lately with dairy and it’s kinda hit and miss all over the place so I have no idea what’s going on.  I was thinking of doing a reset with my gut along the lines of the SIBO protocol, but haven’t pulled the trigger yet.  I had told myself a while ago that I would wait until I was done nursing V before doing any antibiotics, but now here I am, months after weaning, and I still haven’t made any moves.  Still trying to decide if it’s worth it. Some days my gut is fine, so long as I generally stick to a low fodmap approach, and other days it’s a total mess.  And admittedly, I’m not watching my diet as well as I used to, so that may be the root of the issue, but I don’t know…it’s very tempting to see if an herbal antimicrobial may do the trick too.

Anyway, the bearnaise sauce was deeeelish and was pretty worth the minor symptoms that accompanied it.

Looks pretty gourmet huh!?

Ugh.  This kid and his sleep issues.  We are IN IT with him right now.  I can’t even talk more about it because it’s just too much.  Maybe if and when we come out the other side!?!!?  GAHHHH.

I think I skipped dinner this night! Baby steps!  But I am pretty sure I had dessert every night the rest of the week.

Waffles again (made a batch of three days’ worth) for brekkie.  And kale salad again for lunch.  I finished off the mac nuts (SHOOOOOOT I JUST GOT BACK FROM COSTCO AND FORGOT TO GET MORE) which were salty as all ^&%$ because it was the bottom of the barrel where all the best stuff lies.

We went to farmer’s market for dinner and I got the poke bowl from Zumapoke.  They have a brick and mortar downtown but their presence at market is new, and I was a fan. I got the sampler, which included the ahi poke, the spicy ahi poke, and the octopus poke.  The octopus was my fave!  I can’t recall if I’ve ever had octopus (probably on a dare from my dad of something!?) but I liked it.  There was a lot of rice, so – get this! – I shared it with the kids.  BOTH kids.  As in, my son with deadly food allergies, ate some food from a street vendor!!  To be fair, I checked that there was no dairy or peanuts in any of their menu items when I was ordering it, but still!!  He is doing SO WELL in oit it’s blowing my mind.  He now consumes 10 ml of whole milk twice a day.  Who would have ever thought…!!!

The kids ate a real dinner too, which I made and packed for them, between dancing to the music.

And after we got home and put them to bed we got our chocolate on, per usual.

I shredded zucchini and added it to their pancake batter and they liked it so much!  They didn’t even ask for butter on them!

I made the batter the same as I typically do otherwise with mashed bananas to sweeten it and eggs, oil, almond milk, whole wheat flour, salt and baking soda.

I had zucchini bread, which I had pulled from the freezer the night before.  It was the second loaf that I made the previous week that I forgot to add sweetener to.  So I added NuNaturals’ chocolate stevia syrup.  Yup.  I did that.  For breakfast.

Kale and avo and miso dressing.  I added an entire avo since I was out of nuts. Gotta get the fats in.

I had a bunch of these sweet plantain chips from TJs on the side.  I got them as a treat to bring to Fremont for oit snacking, but P didn’t really like them, so I claimed them as my own.  They are sweeter than the other TJs plantain chips, but not as salty and addictive.  I still managed to eat half the bag, but that’s better than the whole bag.  I got a delivery while they slept too. Have you guys ever heard of HYLETE?

They make sports/performance apparel and it fits AMAZING!  I’m obsessed.  I got cropped pants because it’s starting to be too warm for my thick pants, but not hot enough for shorts.  They have bras and shirts too.

I got this shirt for free (!!), which I rocked while squeezing in a morning weight session before Friday OIT.   #HYLETEnation

Kyle had to be in Davis on Friday for work, so I went to my parents’ house with the kids per usual but he stayed home.  My mom made us a feast!  My sister came over too, and we all ate salmon, roasted potatoes, and veggies together.

The next morning she watched V while my big boy and I went to his appointment.

Here’s the end of my workout…crunching until I couldn’t do another.  The invex II bottoms have a thick waste band, but they don’t cut into your stomach at all.  It’s not high rise either (which most of my GapFit apparel is).  It’s truly a perfect fit and doesn’t have me pulling it up all workout long (which I find myself doing with my cheaper C9 gear).  I have my eye on the nimbus caprite next…

Off to Fremont!

This kid is such a trooper.  He definitely complains about the driving on the way home, but that’s the best you could hope for after tolerating 5 hours of people poking and prodding you over and over again…feeding you things you have been told to avoid your whole life…

We have been filling our time with the same old same old – books on cd (discman compliments of my hoarder parents keeping things from my youth), tracing and writing practice, crafts, plus one new and special little something.

This is from the Easter Bunny and it immediately went into the Fremont activity bag.

I really try to pack one EXTRA exciting thing – either a treat food I know he loves or a new book or activity – just so he has something super special that makes him forget about the task at hand.  I spend most of the time reading to him, playing with him, or feeding him, but I do get to dork around on my phone too in between psycho analyzing his health. Way more than I would at home, at least.  I do try to stay really present with him though, as tempting as it is to deep dive on the internet, because (a) it’s really our only time alone and (b) I have to keep a really close eye on him watching for early symptoms.

The time really flies by though.  And before I know it, he’s had his last dose, and we are waiting to get the all clear to hit the road.

To Whole Foods!  For our special lunch dates, followed by shopping trips with my list of items I can only get at my beloved grocer.  This time it was soy yogurt, salami, and daiya cheddar blocks. Can you believe I can’t find bulk tubs of non-dairy yogurt in Davis??  Moreover, all the salami (Columbus is local so that’s what every store carries) has nonfat dry milk powder in it.  Not applegate though!  That’s his favorite, so this time I bought it for him to enjoy right then and there.

Which he did, with a tortilla sun butter and jelly that I brought for him too.

I pack soooo many snacks for him to eat at the clinic because you really have to pad your stomach for the allergens.  It’s always a super snacky morning for him that I like he doesn’t get a proper meal until dinner that night.  At least the salami was some major protein and fat.  After apple sauce, bananas, cereal, etc. he needed something real.

I got a very random meal!  Not the slaw part – that’s 100% my scene and I’m pretty sure I got it last week too.  The deviled eggs though. They were delicious!  And if you asked me the last time I had a deviled egg I may say 4th grade.

We made it back to Davis in decent time.  P slept half the way, but still whined about the trip being too long for the remaining hour (I don’t blame him, we hit some traffic and it wasn’t fun).  V also cried on and off (mostly on) for much of the drive home.  So that was fun.  Not.

But Kyle got off work early and I had already made potato salad and so he grilled us hot dogs while we all played in the yard together.

Strawberries taking off.

More applegate love.

I roasted green beans too.

This potato salad was LEGIT.  Probably because I made it Thursday before we left town so it had a whole 24 hours post marriage to get all flavor things going on.

Poor dude had a ROUGH night.

After his dose he started feeling bad fairly immediately.  He got congested and complained of a stomach ache and had one single wheal appear on his arm.  I gave him an antihistamine, an inhaler, and a topical steroid and then stayed with him while he got better.  It took a bit for him to calm down but finally he was relaxed and then eventually asymptomatic.  Unfortunately he never got fully to sleep and woke up a bit later and continued his anti-sleeping-four-year-old-regression-that-makes-his-parents-lose-their-minds for the rest of the night…until 5 am, when he finally went to bed in his bed. W. T. F. Makes you lose your mind.

Chocolate helps.

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Easter weekend

Why not start off with chocolate?

This dessert plate has Lily’s crispy rice chocolate bar, TJs chai almond chocolate bar, TJs golden spiced chocolate bar, and TJs firecracker bar. I had odds and ends to finish off so I just took care of business.

I didn’t take a pic of either the banana bread I made, but that’s because the banana bread was for my man so I packed it up in his lunches.  And this was the only shot I got of the zucchini bread I made (for myself), because I’ve had a hard time plating my breakfasts lately.

I went back to the cashew butter, after a brief foray with the mixed nut butter jar.  The rest of the days I ate this, I just unrolled it from the tin foil and stabbed it with a fork quickly until my stomach was set (or we had to run out the door).

I meant to show you this brilliant technique that we did at V’s school!  Ziplock bags with dye! Then you add a hard boiled egg…voila!  No mess 🙂

Doesn’t everyone dye eggs in fairy wings, ballet skirts, and pearls?

LUNCH TIME KALE DOSE.

Plus an obscene amount of mac nuts on top of these.  I think I overdid it this time.  I always think that though…and then I find myself hungry by dinner time so obviously it’s all an ok amount, right?

Dinner at my parents’ house – because errrryone loves a taco bar.

I made mine nacho-y with chips, and accidentally made my kids’ tacos bigger than their heads. Oops!  They didn’t really mind.

The next morning was oit.  I went on a run and came back to a fully awake household.  A few hours after the end of each oit session I feel like I finally exhale, and that’s when I realize I am so stressed and tense throughout the process. I know it’s not healthy for me to do that, but it’s obviously subconscious.  Anyway, I know that sweating in the morning helps me.  P is such a champ during the appointments, and I’m sure it’s hard for him.  But he’s also young enough that he doesn’t totally get the significance of what he’s doing.  Or the danger.  But I take all that on.  I know the risks and I watch him like a hawk, analyzing every little sneeze, eye rub, ear scratch, etc.

Before we headed to Fremont they opened Easter presents from my parents.  Cars band-aids and Larabars for the win.

Dosing it up.

We had a little hiccup, but not a set back.  As always the clinic was cautious and played it safe before forging ahead.

Now we are up to > 1 tsp whole milk twice a day!  Can you even believe it!?!?! Trying not to get too ahead of myself.  Baby steps.

Celebrated with a burrito (that I made and packed from yesterday’s leftovers) and whole foods hot bar for me!  I got miso lime tofu and pulled pork with cole slaw, but the pork was so bland. I wish I’d only gotten the tofu.  It was salty and delicious.

Back at my parents’ house we waited for V to wake up and picked some oranges.

My padres sent us home with SO MANY oranges.  V is doing her best to finish them all in as little time as possible!  This girl is a citrus fiend.  All she wants for breakfast, lunch and dinner are oranges.

We had leftovers for dinner…which resulted in a major fridge clean out.  I love that!  I love it when all the small portions get finished off.

Our Saturday was so crazy packed.  We had two birthday parties and a tee ball game.  Kinda much for a 2 and 4 year old, but what can you do??

The first party had a bounce house, so they were exhausted for the day by 11 am.  Ruh roh.

We had to leave early to get to the Rockies tee ball game on time, which V was bummed about. But she was pretty ok with it all once she found out the party bag had animal crackers.  I let her have them during the game because it’s a holiday weekend so she can have a treat.  I swear I’m not a total tight a$$ of a mom, but I really try to avoid processed snacks.  They love fruit, so why give them anything else?  Anyway, I’m finding it harder and harder to dodge these days with all their group/team activities.  Now don’t get me wrong, we are in Davis, so the things parents are bringing are far from offensive…but…ugh…I don’t think this is worth my time and energy to stress about..??  But if there’s one thing this food blog should emphasize, it is that food is really super important to me!!!  Ok, don’t think I’m a freak for this.  I just love my kids and want the best for them, like every other parent.  So if I want to worry about the non organic wheat and soy crackers my daughter is eating then nobody can stop me.  🙂

This is a good look no?

Aaaaand more mac nuts. One of these days I will figure out a proper serving size for them, but until then I will continue to serve myself a normal portion followed by heaps more once the salad is gone.

Hop hop hop!

Party number two of the day was at gymnastics.

Followed by an egg hunt at the park.

P was starting to hit a wall at this point (duh!! he didn’t nap!!), but Kyle and I still decided to be extra ambitious and hit up Costco that evening.

I came up with this dinner last week and had been waiting to make it until I got a chance to try hazelnuts on P.  It’s hard to find good times to try things with him since I don’t want it to be around a time he will be sleeping, at an activity, away from me (at school), which leaves not many options. That said, I had his blood tested a while back for hazelnuts and it came back negative, so I wasn’t really thinking it would be an issue.  Still, it’s something I get a little anxious about. Anyway, no issues.

Ingredients:

  • roasted sweet potatoes with avocado oil (new LOVE!) and salt
  • crushed roasted hazelnuts (SOOO many)
  • maple syrup + olive oil + apple cider vinegar
  • dried cranberries (I wanted roasted grapes but there aren’t organic ones available yet)
  • chickpeas (for the kids)
  • baby kale (for the adults)

Obviously kids and adults could have either or both, but I wasn’t in the mood for more fodmaps and lettuce sounded good.

I didn’t have dessert this night, but did drink some tea while watching a movie with Kyle.  We rented Hidden Figures from apple.  I am trying to sorta maybe a little kinda limit my chocolate eating to 4-5 times a week??  I’m not keeping track, but every other is a decent way to figure it out, and I knew for sure I was going to eat LOTS of Easter candy the next day.

Happy Easter!

Oh man are these three my favorites.

We started the day with an egg hunt, that lead them downstairs to baskets.  Since this was their second of three egg hunts, I made sure it was very low key.  And the baskets were just an excuse for them to get some gardening tools and seeds.  Now mama has helpers for our Spring gardening!  Thanks Easter bunny!!  😉

I made a triple batch of pancakes for breakfast, so we would have enough to get us to Tuesday. Then I hard boiled some (WHITE) eggs while Kyle got them dressed for church.

Family photo ops in front of the house as we loaded up in the car (it was sunny for the moment, so we had to capitalize).

Our neighbors took a family photo too, so don’t worry mom, I’ll send you that one.

After church (which had another egg hunt!) we dyed eggs.

And then they ate 6 (!!) for lunch.

I don’t blame them though, because I made 7 minute eggs and the yolks were perfectly creamy and soft inside. Gooey yolk porn, for sure.

I had some on my salad because they looked heavenly.

The Easter bunny knows the way to my <3  A whole box of Scotchmallows!!!!

First attempt at roasting ham was a major success.

I roasted green beans too.

Check it out!

I basted it with glaze to take it over the top, and the kids couldn’t get enough of it.  No shock right? Since it’s basically bacon…  And there are mega leftovers, which I have already used to make a quiche.  Oh and I realized I should probably do something with the hock (that’s what the bone is called right?) so I added it to the crock pot with a bunch of water and some chopped celery and bay leaves that night.  And then the next day went to get a pound of white beans to cook in that ham liquid.  I hardly need to go grocery shopping this week since I have gobble meals arriving tomorrow!

I had a major brain fart while baking zucchini bread and forgot to add sweetener…and then realized my mistake after pouring it in the pan.  So I quickly sprinkled some NuNaturals stevia on top hoping for the best.  One loaf had chocolate chips in it, so that could be enough I guess, but the other loaf was plain.

Oh hey there massive loaf.  I can’t wait to eat you in the morning.

Family band jam sesh after dinner.  The usual.  These days I have to kinda remind him to tone it down since he isn’t supposed to do anything too active after his dose, but man is that hard for a 4 year old.

I had seconds after this because it’s Easter and that’s all I have to say to justify it.

A little lazy

I have had a doozy of a week.  Parenting is hard, yo.

I feel like I’ve been cutting a few corners in the kitchen as a result.  It’s sink or swim and in order to stay afloat I’m enlisting the help of the middle aisles in the grocery stores.  And home delivery meal kit services.

Ok, first off, I got this coconut yogurt at WF last weekend.

It’s plain, but still tastes sweet enough.  You can’t find bulk non-dairy yogurt here in Davis anymore, so I have lists of WF things for my weekly Fremont trips (the WF is across the street from the oit clinic).  I also got bulk bin candied ginger. Anyway, I don’t think I’ve given them cereal for breakfast more than 3 times in their lives, but if ever there were a time, this past week was it.

And if you add nuts and seeds and fruit (along with the cereal) it isn’t a total sugar bomb.  They ate this a few times this week.

I can’t find Earth Balance’s vegan mac ‘n cheese here in Davis either (I used to get it at WF – how sick are you of my whining about not having a WF in town anymore?!?!).  I got Annie’s only vegan options at Nugget and the kids love it!

I was nervous at first because I wasn’t sure how good pumpkin and sweet potato are at mimicking cheese, but they were into it, so yay!

I added frozen peas and boom – lunches are served.  I made real meals for the rest of the week, but it was definitely a relief to have this as a pinch hitter for a few days.

Heaping on the kale per usual, only swapping in smoked salmon for mac nuts for a few days.

Still can’t resist those salty nuts though…

Here’s how quiet time has been going.

That’s his cd player he’s cuddled up next to…

Gobble meal kit numero dos!  Maple balsamic pork with sauteed pears, prunes and butternut squash risotto.

The portions are really quite generous.  I gave the kids some of the meat, pears and prunes, and still had plenty.  The risotto had dairy so none for P, but I actually ate some and it was reallllllly good.  Hashtag worth it.

I made it pretty quickly, too, although not quite in under 10 minutes.  That’s hardly any time!  And I’m fast in the kitchen, so I don’t know who could possibly be doing things that fast.

But guys this was so GOOD!!

I really have nothing but good things to say about gobble and I wish we could afford to keep it in our budget, but alas, it’s going to have to be reserved for weeks that I need a break. It’s super awesome because I still get to cook and the recipes are amazing and we eat cool new exciting stuff that I get to pretend I kinda made.

Dessert followed by hours of dealing with my new non-sleeper.

A new day, a new attempt at patient parenting.  😉  And a banana muffin eaten in haste as we attempt to get to open gym on time.  As I loaded the kids in the car, P said “I’m sorry you didn’t get to eat breakfast mama, but you can have lunch and dinner.”  Sooooo close to being sweet.

I made a few loaves of banana bread on Sunday (for a friend who recently had a baby), and the batter had enough extra for a couple of muffins.  I’m really glad I didn’t freeze them for later because they were perfect to stuff in my mouth on the run!

Arts and crafts, library fun, and park play…all in a rainy day’s work.

Thanks goodness we got a peak of sun that evening.

Lately he has been trying to come up with recipes and I’ve been so impressed with them!  For lunch this day, he came up with wild rice, dates, sunflower seeds, and turkey. Not bad right?  We had been brainstorming during breakfast and they both agreed lunch had to include dates…so I asked him what else and he pretty much came up with the rest on his own!  Full disclosure: he wanted wild rice and quinoa but I told him to pick one or the other.

I put wild rice in the rice cooker then and there and so the rest came together in no time. Both kids loved it, too.

From the left to the right in a cool 10 minutes thanks to gobble.

Ok, so it actually took longer, like it always has, but I divided up the work this time.  Gobble seems to rely on a microwave for at least one step per recipe – usually steaming something that’s already been par-cooked.  Anyway, I don’t mind since I have a bunch of glass mixing bowls.  So during nap time I just got everything ready to assemble into bowls later that night.

I love that the produce has so clearly been recently picked (locally), because it is fresh and crunchy and usually still has a little dirt on it. Like that cute little romaine!

This was actually a tricky night because we had Pattycakes’ open house from 6-730 (aka when they are eating dinner and then going to bed).  Moreover, it was preceded by his swim class at 5. Soooo, I decided to go unconventional and bring dinner to swim class!

Look at her!  I went to the front desk to pay, leaving them in the play area before his class started. For. Literally. A. Minute.  And in that time she swooped on his goggles and put them on, while doing puzzles. Hilarious.

After his lesson, I got him dried up and dressed and then fed them sweet potatoes, turkey patties (I made a bunch in bulk during nap time – and froze the rest), and green beans. I brought his milk dose too, so once he was good to go, we walked next door to his school.  🙂

He was such a proud big brother strutting in with her hand! And as you can tell, she was on the same level with her excitement.

Which only grew once she found out she could play with all his school stuff AND have a cupcake.

This little one…

Kyle met us there and we stayed until each kid was 90% melted down, and then I got to drive them both home…yay!  Kyle met me back home though, and as soon as we got them in bed, I served us up.

The real reason I have been liking the gooble dishes is the sauces and dressings that go on them. Because obviously I could make a Mexican bowl just fine on my own. But the chipotle ranch dressing and cotija cheese takes it over the edge into MEGA yum territory.  And the sauce don’t have fillers and crap that you’d buy in pre-made stuff at the store, so it’s still home-made but just not by me.  I find that to be the most important distinction between gobble and other delivery food prep kits.  The sauces and dressings are already made for you.  So you can cook the protein and chop veggies and all that, but then it gets elevated to fancy pants when you add the sauce.

This was heavenly and I went balls to the wall on it, knowing I wasn’t going to have dessert that night (because we were eating kinda late).  I had chips too, and it was fabulous.

I would eat this 10 times again this next week and if I could buy the chipotle ranch dressing I would get that as well.

Sadly gobble doesn’t post their recipes (just the ingredient list) online.  I wrote them and asked for the recipe though, so we will see if they get back to me.

See, look!?  I just ordered more meals for next week!  (Kyle’s out of town again)

Zucchini bread and moon juice for my breakfast. The vanilla fig fix was SOO insanely sweet I couldn’t even stand it.  I added it to a cup with 4 parts plain almond milk to drown out the pucker inducing sweet situation.  I have a major sweet tooth, so for me to say this is big.  It was very figgy, though, which I appreciated.  But definitely too sweet.

Pancakes and strawberries for the wee ones.

They like using the teeny tiny ones I make as eyes for pancake faces 🙂

Easter prep fail because brown eggs?????  They ended up working ok, but I’ll have to go get white ones before I do it with both kids on Sunday (I did some with V at her school already).

More lazy corners being cut with prepared pizza dough.

Vicolo and Simple Mills because I like both and couldn’t decide which I wanted more.

P has been my nap time cooking buddy so he did the marinara, cheese and topping portion of this meal.

[He didn’t do Kyle’s cow milk pizza]

First time in the side by side seat cart at Target and they were loving every second of it.  I loved this book from the children’s section.  Well done! And speaking of the Supreme Court, when will more of my favorite podcast episodes be returning (if you haven’t heard More Perfect, it’s awesome).

Set my oven to cook these bad boys while we were gone at t-ball practice….and came home to a really good smelling casa.

This meal was also Pacman’s idea.  Did I already mention that?  He wanted bell peppers and day cheese.  And next time he said mushrooms and pepperoni.  I think pizza night could be a regular thing because of what a hit it is.  How typical of us.  Family pizza night.

My portion.  Round one.

I saved a few slices for lunch leftovers.

Yes!  Recommend.  Yes.

Waiting room…

Turns out he has 20/20 and all is fine.  Phew!  Not that there’s anything wrong with glasses, but it’s still hard to hear about ways your child isn’t 100% healthy…

He was so interested in every different tool and machine, and the MD was patient and awesome and answered every question and talked with him forever.  He was quite smitten with my little guy and appreciated how well behaved he was.  Silver lining to OIT?  P is a champ with medical staff and procedures.

I had this waiting for us at home, which P helped conceptualize and cook. He actually came up with most of the dish.  I had bought sausage at the store, which he knew, so he requested that in a meal.  So then I asked what else we should put it with.  He said “quinoa and lettuce, maybe kale?” so I said done and done.  Looks like he’s caught on to my lazy formula of green + grain + protein.  It was dreary and rainy all morning so this was my quickie back up to farmer’s market.  When will the weather finally get warm!  It was in the 40s and rainy AGAIN for most of this week.  Boo!  Hopefully Easter will be nice because I think the Easter Bunny has plans for an egg hunt  😉